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the living dead....well sorta :P

So, I'm seriously hoping to start writing and journal-socializing again. School is finally losing it's strangle hold and I'm in serious need of a place to vent, I've actually been using an old fashioned paper journal lately, but it's full now and i don't feel like buying a new one(broke, who me, O.o), so i'm going to try using the internet again, go me! lol . My life since the beginning of this year has pretty much sucked ass, and I'm kinda sorta at the point where i'm saying screw everyone and could they please through their issues elsewhere. *sigh* why did my parents have to raise me to be so well mannered, damn southern upbringing, >.>' 

On a happy note.  My plot bunny brain has been all over the place lately. I'm also scrapping the previous story I started posting as it soooo sux and I now have several college writing classes under my belt, so hopefully i sux tre less, ^-^. I'm also more into crossovers than i ever thought, so hopefully the stories in my head will make onto an archive somewhere soon.

Time to attempt that fabulous pastime of sleep, but i'm an insomniac so I have no hope, :P

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location: home
My Dreamstate: apathetic apathetic
The Lullaby: nickelback
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follow the white rabbit

So, like, ahhhhh! *sigh* Basically, I've been taking care of grandparents, fighting depression, doing little jobs for my parents nursery(as unemployment suX!), and having a life meltdown for a new years start. Yeah, teh exciting. I'm finally get back into things though, slowly but surely. I'm trying to work on a novel, but it's coming slowly. Sometimes I hit a stride and can write for hours, other times I feel like throwing my laptop into a wall. I'm also trying to work on my neglected HP fanfic, but I've hit a road block, and I'm also not going to post anymore of it 'til it's done. That way I don't feel bad when I don't update, as it'll be done and up. That's teh plan anywayz. Ah well, now that I'm trying to get back, I'll hopefully update more.

location: bed
My Dreamstate: cynical cynical
The Lullaby: 'Before He Cheats' Carrie Underwood
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Halo Halo

Well, it's been awhile(*winces*). I just haven't had journal time, and RL is just, well it is what it is. Quite a bit has happened. Halloween, Thanksgiving and now x-mas is coming. My x-mas shopping is mostly done except for the parental units, *sigh*, they're always so hard to shop for. This holiday season has been pretty good so far actually, which tells me to worry, S. luck will come out of no where like always (my cuz would know exactly what I mean). I've actually seen my cuz earlier than usual, she came down w/her boyfriend to do a dance filming at Dis. and we spent one evening at Mickey's Very Merry X-mas, which was actually really fun. BF is nice, fun to hang with. Reminds me sadly of how single I am, bah, oh well. Just haven't meet a guy or gal who makes me feel all lovey dovey. Anywayz, life's ok. I have no fucking clue what I want to do. My psychology/women's study might not be what I really want, though I Do want to have a major hopefully in Women's Study. It's just I'm more interested truthfully in science, not just any science either, I love things that deal w/parallel worlds and string theory. It's just so interesting. Sometimes I feel like I should just try and write a science fiction book, but I don't know if I could. I'll try and write in this more, it's just having to remind myself that there is more than fanfiction on the INTRNT

My Dreamstate: contemplative contemplative
The Lullaby: 'Crashed' by Daughtry
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la la la la laaaaaa

So, I've been having highs and lows. Grandad came home from the rehab hospital a couple of weeks ago and I couldn't be happier about it. He's doing so much better, the doctors are even saying he'll walk with a cane in a month or so, instead of the walker he's using now. They're actually hoping to get him walking without anything when all is said and done. He still has problems with his left shoulder, but it's a lot better than it was.

That's been my high. My low is that I'm fighting some serious depression. Everything just seems so pointless lately and I'm fighting my urges to give up my hopes and dreams, but it's getting harder. I really need to see my doctor, I just haven't gotten around to it yet. I haven't been very social since my grandad had his surgery, I'm hoping that when I join the local ballroom dance hall it might help me. I don't know we'll see.

I'm also quite disgusted w/my countries politics. I just want to go up to them and shout that separation of church and state was and is part of our constitution, so where the fuck did it go! I respect other peoples right to their religions as long as they don't force it on others. I'm also worried about being a woman in this country, isn't that sad that. Birth Control has become so fucking expensive, and I don't even use it for what they think I'm using it for(I wish), it's to help me not be bedridden w/agonizing pain during my monthly and to help keep my emotions semi-stable during that time as well, which is just good for everyone around. I'm now torn between Hilary Clinton and Joe Biden for my choice of president. I was mainly Joe Biden, but I'm not sure he'll do that great during the primary. It's a scary world out there folks and it ain't gettin any better. bah.

On a good note I'm working on my fanfic again, the plot bunnies are chomping on carrots again and they be happy. Hopefully I'll have an update soon, my hands can only type so fast, lol.

My Dreamstate: weird weird
The Lullaby: 'What I didn't Say' Saving Jane
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My Life or Something Like it

So, I haven't been on in awhile. My life has been crazy and stressful. I've been neglecting my fic due to stressed out bunnies who don't feel like talking when I'm so upset. As I said in one of my last posts my grandad had major hear surgery, well sometime after words he had a post op stroke. It affected his left side and his swallowing. He also got an infection and we almost lost him, but thankfully that doctors found the right antibiotic and my grandad 's a fighter so he pulled through, but it was so close though *shudders*. Two weeks after his surgery, they transfered him to a rehab hospital, to help get him started on gaining his left arm back and walking again. Upsettingly, a few days later they had to send him back because he got a bug again and the rehab hospital wasn't equipped to give him the type of antibiotics he'd need so back to the hospital(though thankfully not ICU), and another week was spent there until they were sure it was gone. During this, he was also having to learn how to swallow again, and had managed to start moving his left hand. He's been back in the rehab hospital since they cured the bug. I'm happy to say that in a week he should be coming home. That doesn't mean he's 100%, but he's almost good enough that we can take care of him. My mom and I have been taking these classes that they require, and it's very enlightening. He was cleared yesterday from his sternal precautions and can now use his arms more and is using a walker instead of a wheelchair to get around. He was also cleared to eat regular meals instead of ground up and soft foods(he was thrilled at this and I don't blam him, :) ). He's still having minor troubles with his left arm, but the therapist said that he's doing better. Apparently he did things backwards, most patients gain movement from the shoulder down to the hand eventually, but he started from the hand and has progressed up from there, it's how we knew that eventually he should have total usage of his arm again. So. yeah. It's been a very emotional and stressful month, and it's just left me exhausted. But, since he's my hero, he's more than worth it.

I don't know if ya'll have been watching 'The War' by Ken Burns, but it is one of the best documentaries I've ever seen. My grandfather was an artillery gunner for the 103rd Infantry in WWII, he was 18 years old. He's watched almost every episode so far, he missed one, because he said it was making him a bit emotional and that he had to take a break from watching. He's also told me more than he ever has about his tour, he used to just tell me about minor things, like seeing the countryside or boot camp, stuff that wasn't too hard to tell, but I think he's finally decided that I'm old enough and that it'll help him to tell his story more. I'm hoping to ask his opinion on The Veterans History Project, which is about gaining information on history from those with wartime service, that will be preserved in the Library of Congress. I'm hoping he'll let me tell his story, as he's my hero and I've learned a lot from the stories he's told me.

I don't know what my online life will be like in the coming months, but I'll try to update more. I also have to go inform those who've been reading my story on HPFandom.net that I'm going to be sporadic with updates for awhile, as I've said when I'm upset or stressed the plot bunnies hide in their burrows.

My Dreamstate: tired tired
The Lullaby: 'One Girl Revolution' by Saving Jane
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R.I.P. ♥

R.I.P. Madeleine L'Engle :c

My Dreamstate: sad sad
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Fic: Specialis Animus (Chapter Two)

Title: Specialis Animus
Author: Dmluvslave85
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance, Drama, Angst/Tragedy, Adventure, AU, First Time, Humor, Mystery/Suspense
Disclaimer: I have two shiny pennies and some oreocakes, the oreocakes are mine, but you can have my two cents. I'm not making money off this fic. The characters and world belong to J.K. Rowling, whom is the literary goddess, WB(doc) and the publisher's.
Summary: Sixth year's over, the war has begun. Harry's going to face a world of secrets, both past and present, that will take everything he's known and turn it upside down. What's a Specialis Animus, well Harry's About to find out.
Pairing: Harry/OMC/OMC (the OMC's will be revealed in due time, it's a surprise)
Warnings: Under-18 as this takes place after HBP, Slash, Violence, powerful Harry, and possible DH spoilers(not concrete yet though). Also, there will be surprise's along the way, for both you and me, welcome to the madhouse, ^-~



My Dreamstate: indescribable indescribable
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Fic: Specialis Animus (Chapter One)

Title: Specialis Animus
Author: Dmluvslave85
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance, Drama, Angst/Tragedy, Adventure, AU, First Time, Humor, Mystery/Suspense
Disclaimer: I have two shiny pennies and some oreocakes, the oreocakes are mine, but you can have my two cents. I'm not making money off this fic. The characters and world belong to J.K. Rowling, whom is the literary goddess, WB(doc) and the publisher's.
Summary: Sixth year's over, the war has begun. Harry's going to face a world of secrets, both past and present, that will take everything he's known and turn it upside down. What's a Specialis Animus, well Harry's About to find out.
Pairing: Harry/OMC/OMC (the OMC's will be revealed in due time, it's a surprise)
Warnings: Under-18 as this takes place after HBP, Slash, Violence, powerful Harry, and possible DH spoilers(not concrete yet though). Also, there will be surprise's along the way, for both you and me, welcome to the madhouse, ^-~
(A.N.- Hello everyone, I'm going to ask that everyone bear w/my chaotic plot bunny and the fact that this is the first fic I've ever posted.)


Chapter One- A Ghostly Reunion )

My Dreamstate: embarrassed embarrassed
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FIC: Specialis Animus (prologue)

Title: Specialis Animus
Rating: NC-17 over-all
Genre: Romance, Drama, Angst/Tragedy, Adventure, AU, First Time, Humor, Mystery/Suspense
Disclaimer: I have two shiny pennies and some oreocakes, the oreocakes are mine, but you can have my two cents. I'm not making money off this fic. The characters and world belong to J.K. Rowling, whom is the literary goddess, WB(doc) and the publisher's.
Summary: Sixth year's over, the war has begun. Harry's going to face a world of secrets, both past and present, that will take everything he's known and turn it upside down. What's a Specialis Animus, well Harry's About to find out.
Pairing: Harry/OMC/OMC (the OMC's will be revealed in due time, it's a surprise)
Warnings: Under-18 as this takes place after HBP, Slash, Violence, powerful Harry, and possible DH spoilers(not concrete yet though). Also, there will be surprise's along the way, for both you and me, welcome to the madhouse, ^_~
(A.N.- Hello everyone, I'm going to ask that everyone bear w/my chaotic plot bunny and the fact that this is the first fic I've ever posted. This is also unbetaed, all mistakes are mine, I'm in the market for a beta though, so if you're into odd story lines, like slash, and have some time I'd love the help, just comment if you're interested!)


Prologue )

My Dreamstate: nervous nervous
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I ♥ my Granpa

I think today has been one of the most stressful days in my life to count. My grandfather went in for heart surgery today, (I've been a basketcase since 6 this morning by the way) he was having a valve replaced that had gotten reallly bad, I turned into a blurbering idiot when my mom came away from talking w/the the doctors after it was over and they said he did great and was doing even better than expected. He's got a nice room up in ICU, he's been coming out of the sedation(word?) all day, he was blinking and even squeezed mom's hand before we left this evening. We'll probably head over at 7 in the morning, visiting hours are on odd times and only for an hour, but it's so worth it. Add to all that stress the fact that I'm PMSing(freakin' hormones, BAH!) something fearce, then you'll understand that I feel like someone's just been batterin' at me all day, *sigh* time to go see if I can find some Midol in the drawer of the med-cab(ohhh please be there) or if I'm gonna have to go on an emerg. to Walgreens(which I sooo don't want to do. :P).

My Dreamstate: stressed stressed
The Lullaby: 'Butterfly Kisses' Bob Carlisle
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Wii!!

Ok, So I totally ♥ my parents! I am now the owner of a Wii! Squee!! lol . I can't wait to get Mario and play, or Zelda, I'll have to think my game options over carefully, XD. My mom says, Dad and her stopped by the mall, because dad needed a restroom and wanted to stop at the food court for lunch(totally serendipitous, can you believe it! I've been trying to find one for months), anyways they were heading by EB games and they had a sign out that they had wii's in, my dad then told mom that if they didn't get it now they'd never find one for my birthday, so they got it, then they decided to give it to me like 4 months early, which is sooooo fine, who needs a present on their birthday when their parents just got them one of the hottest consoles out there, lol. I have to tell you I haven't been this excited about a gaming console since the Xbox came out years ago. Now in my uber-geeked out mind, I'm going window shopping on Best Buy.com and some of the other online stores.

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My Dreamstate: geeky geeky
The Lullaby: 'Black Horse and a Cherry Tree' K T Turnstall
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Blogthings

I went and did a few blogthings..

Follow the Fake Cut--> )

My Dreamstate: amused amused
The Lullaby: Evanescence - Snow White Queen
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Testing

Testing. testing. Is my new program for multiple posting working? I hope so, lol.

edited: yup, Wahoo!

My Dreamstate: working working
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Well, from what I've seen, Insanejournal is pretty cool. I've been trying to decide whether I'll load up all my old lj entries or not. I have to find a program I like first to transfer everything. I'm gonna go community hopping now, hopefully I'll find migrated friends. :P

My Dreamstate: curious curious
The Lullaby: 'Feelin' Way to D*mn Good' by Nickelback
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my thoughts

My thoughts and prayers go to the people in Minniapolis. I was just in that city over the last week and weekend. I remember traveling over that bridge(I35) and it's an strange feeling to know exactly what the area is like where something horrible happens.

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HP

I just got up an hour ago, but it's understandble when I just spent last night reading HP&tDH's. It was really good, I'll give my thoughts later in the post under a cut. I had reserved my copy at Borders, and I got there around 7:30pm yesterday. I was wearing my Snape shirt that says Friend or Foe? on the bottom, and an emerald green robe that my mom helped me make. There wasn't a lot of people there yet, but their were other fans there already too. By the time we got to midnight, they're had to be more the 200+ people there. I got my copy at 1:00 and was home and reading it by 1:30(I'm lucky I don't live very far from the bookstore, otherwise I'd have gone crazy having to wait 'til I got home). I started at 1:30 and didn't finish 'til around 9:25(made possible by coke zero and crackers). I then proceeded to crash, but I finished it. I don't know about everyone else, but I'm not embarssed to admit that when I closed the book, I cried a few tears to the knowledge that there would be no more books. Ah well, end of an era.

Warning Warning: HP&tDH Spoilers! )

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Life or something like it..

So, I've been contemplating everything. My life and where it's going, when I did it was kinda depressing. I don't have a freakin' clue what I wanna do anymore. I've taken a look at what I'm good at and it's down to baking and reading/writing. I've got a bunch of ideas for writing a book but not the courage to start writing it, I mean it's outlined and all my characters are made, I just can't seem to wanna sit down and pour the world I've created in my brain onto paper(or wordpad, :P). Being an author though is kinda a later deal in life anyways, though I have been thinking of trying to go the editor route, but I don't know where I'd start. I've been thinking about this alot lately due to having to decide where I want my classes to take me. Another thing I've been thinking of is how over the past few years, the daylily business my parents own is realllly trying to sprout in my blood, I mean it's not bad to wanna fiddle a little w/hyberdizing but I just don't have it in me to wanna make the daylily's my lifes path, no sire no way, *sigh*. I've also been contemplating a career quietly, because I don't know if I wanna voice that I think I wouldn't mind a career in psychology. I think it comes from the fact that I'm not really an outloud talkative person, what I like to do is just sit back and listen, I also watch, it's just so interesting to just observe people going about their everyday lives. My friends like to put it this way, "Alex, you like people, you just don't like to interact w/them." , truer words where never spoken. Anyways, I'll probably take some psy classes to see if it's really something I wanna do or not. I don't know about becoming a pastry chef, sometimes it seems like a really good idea, then other times I think if I start doing this in a business way, I might not enjoy it as much. Well, now that all that emotional stuff is out, I feel better...sortof. Anywayz, HP is coming to Orlando's Universal, can you say annual pass, ^.^, I ♥ living in the sunshine state. That remind's me I need to see about ticket's to Halloween Horror Nights, I tell you that's the best time to go to Universal, the park is something else at night, and they really know how to throw a party, lol. I wish it was July already, there's so many things going on. Oh well. I've got some reading to do, Lean Mean Thirteen by Janet Evanovich, came out and I've read it once already, but now I want to take the audio I got today and listen to it, the girl who reads for the Plum series is really good.

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hmmm

well it's been awhile since I wrote, I've just been so busy in RL that I just haven't been writing. I've also been using the old-fashioned paper diary for awhile, I don't know why but I just missed using a pen/pencil and paper, ^.^ . So, alots happened since last I wrote, which was the SEC championship, sham on me since then we won the National Championship in Football and Basketball too (BacktoBack baby! XD). World of Warcraft: The Burning Crusade has come out, which has truely been fantabulous, I'm not 70 yet but I'm working on it, ^.~ . I'm also trying out the new LOTR's MMORPG, it's actually a lot better than I thought it would be. Pirate's has come out, I'll do a review later, but just to say it's sooooo gooood!! I <3 Capt. Jack Sparrow(everyone of 'em, lol), :D! I just got back from a week in Hattiesburg, Mississippi, helping my dad's Daylily friend pull of a Regional for the Region 14 Daylily Group. It was really nice, they're really good people and it was nice to see everyone. It was a real work out though, so I've officially given myself a week to relax, other wise I might go spare, lol. Next month is the National Convention in Minniapolis, which should be fun, I liked Minniapolis the last time I was there. I'm off to play WOW some, and probably the grocers to figure out supper, I think I'll make some lemonade pie tonight that sounds good and it requires no baking, don't you just love those kinds off desserts, ^.~ .

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Inspiring new website

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An SEC Championship o me o my :)

We won, I still can't believe it and the games been over for over an hour now.

38-28

Wowzer. It was a crazy game too. Reggie Nelson, #1, my boy got an interception and played well. Harvin was fab. I can't wait to watch him play out his career here at Florida, he's one of the most exciting players on the team, I love the nickname they've thought up for him, Mercy Percy, ^.^ . There were some crazy plays in the game too, the fake punt, the toss tebow did to our wr who threw it to casey for the TD, a b.p., the muffed kick. Our defense was the best though, they played their heart out, even though they were bruised and beat up they hung on. Siler, played his best game this year, I think they said he had 12 tackles, 9 of which were solo. UCLA beat USC, which yeah!, we have a chance it's not a huge one, but at least it's one. Though I don't have much faith in the BCS system. They really need to implement a playoff system it would be so much better. If we make it to Arizona, I'm sooo there, I don't know how, but dammit I'm gonna try, XD! I'm gonna watch Hawaii and Oregon play they're game, now that's a game I wish we could go too, ^.~ .

I have a egypt astrology I did earlier that I'll place here
Enter the Heir's Room )

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